Trust and Faith

It is, basically, summer.  June has arrived, school is out, and it is getting hot outside.  Pools are open, summer camps are starting, and I don't have to get up every morning, get myself and Z, to school, and teach all day. It is WONDERFUL! 

There are a few things on my mind, though this summer.  What does God want me to learn from him, during this season of my life?  There are a few changes coming on the horizon for me.  I am not sure if God has placed them there, or if I have made them appear.  As you may or may not know, I am a single mom of an almost 8-year old, fireball of a son.  (I use fireball, for several reasons; one being that was his team at summer camp!)  I was blessed enough to adopt him on his 1st birthday, after fostering him since he was born.  He is my angel, my son, my God-sent miracle.  Did I already say I am a single mom...of a boy...who likes to do outside things...in the hot summer sun...?  I am sooo much an inside person, when it is hot, cold, rainy, windy... you name it, and I like to be inside!  Well, God has other plans for me - and his name is Z!

God, knowing me like he does, has sent a man into my and Z's life.  A wonderful man, whom I have known for over a decade.  This man is an outdoorsman!  YES!  Momma doesn't have to do all this stuff outside anymore!  The only problem is this man, this wonderful, amazing, loving outdoorsman has to make a decision, about becoming a family man.  What you and I may think is an easy decision, is not easy for him.  He agonizes over it.  This decision is on the horizon, and no matter what is decided, it will change mine and Z's life forever.

I have a decision to make, too.  This decision to make, on the horizon, also.  This decision will change mine and Z's life, too.  It is not as drastic decision as my outdoorsman must make, but it will effect our lives.  I have been praying and praying, but I am still not sure about what I am going to do. 

I am sure of one thing, though...
I am going to put my trust and faith in GOD!  No matter what decisions are made, whether they are good, bad, joyous, or painful, I am trusting my God!  We all know the saying, "If God brings you to it, He will get you through it!"  That is my mantra right now.  I am putting my EVERYTHING in God's hands! 

God is teaching me trust and faith, as I wait for these decisions to come up.  It is hard to wait, hard to trust Him, hard to have faith.  I have not been doing this well - waiting, trusting and having faith - and I have been miserable, unhappy, angry, anxious and snappy to all those around me. I am learning that giving it all over to God, and not stressing over anything, is the only way to be content, happy, loving, and calm; and those things will help me and all those I love in the end... no matter what decisions are made.

Peace, Love, Trust & Faith in God,
Lisa